sometimes you bring out my temper.

i'm mad.

i'm upset. 

mad.

at myself.

and others.

that i love.

that chose to quit.

if you quit.

if you decide you just want to go with the flow.

that hurts me.

it hurts others.

i know it's easy.

to just do what every other person is doing.

it's easy to do what feels good.

but life isn't meant to be easy.

and by you settling.

it's more than just you.

my heart.

breaks for you.

i know what you are.

and it seems you gave up on that.

you gave up on being the amazing person that i know you are.

we all want it to make sense.

we all want it to be black and white.

we want easy.

but guess what?

grow up.

it's not. 

try. 

try to be something someone can look up too.

and when you fall.

because we all are human.

you'll fall.

daily.

get up.

move on.

learn.

grow.

crap you make me mad.

i'm not perfect.

FAARRRR FROM IT.

you're not perfect.

but that doesn't mean you can just quit.

life is meant to be fun too.

and love.

LOVE.

it's meant to have love.

yourself.

others.

believe you deserve it.

believe that others feel it too.

no one can love you if you quit loving yourself.

im mad that you just let yourself off easy.

you're better than that.

ok enough venting. 

i'm going to go watch some cheers.

the theme song.

reminds me of my parents.

i just remember it on at my house when i was a kid.

makes me happy.

the. end.

and I think it's very dangerous if we do not take what's ours....

packing.

i'm very bad at packing.

4 years in one house.

i've collected a lot of junk. 

show binders.

credentials.

halloween costumes.

intramural jerseys. 

pictures.

lots of pictures.

mr. narwahl. 

haha so packing what needs to be packed.

trying not to cry at the stuff going to goodwill.

so i've got my ipod jamming.

mostly Christmas music.

but some songs slip in.

like this one. 

the lyrics rock my socks off. 

i love this version because she's wearing sunglasses.

inside.

everyone knows how i feel about this.

silly.

anywho. 

the song is "gray or blue" by jaymay.

"don't second guess your feelings, you were right from the start"

it's about following your gut.

believing you deserve what was made for you.

and going for it.

love it.

smart car=happy lindsay

So i was driving yesterday.

and kind of busy 

and thinking of a million things.

giving myself heartburn 

the usual

anyways

God must have known i needed to laugh.

because what drives by me

but a smart car.

hahaha 

seriously people

i love them.

love like i love my sister.

ok maybe not that much love.

i had tears in my eyes 

they just don't look like they belong on the road.

they look like they belong in the backyard

with my 18 month old niece driving it.

but they make me smile so much.

and of course it was the tallest man with his head touching the roof.

do people know that they look like they're driving a toy?

i don't care.

keep buying cars that are too small for you.

because it makes me laugh and smile.

and that's what's important.

laughing.

good day.

gold and blue.

i loved college.

loved university of akron.

zip for life. 

sure our sports weren't apart of the big ten.

but it was our school.

big enough to meet new people.

but just getting off the ground enough to run it.

bye bye bob's.

hello huuuge stadium

we have a new stadium.

they basically squashed all our favorite hang out places.

put this bad boy directly on top.

if you look in the bottom right hand corner.

basically underneath the stadium.

you'll see my sorority house.

ha the stadium is a tad out of place.

but i'm happy for it.

happy for the new students.

i hope you love it like i loved it.

i hope you toilet paper houses.

go paint the rock.

paint the rock right after someone else did ;)

gain the freshman 20 (or 30)

i hope you learn when to go eat at the cafeteria 

(whenever the football and baseball team eats) ;)

i hope you cookout and play volleyball all summer.

be a student orientation leader. 

sure it's nerdy.

but it'll be the best summer ever.

listen to wzip.

be proud that it's the number ONE college radio station in the country.

lay out on the lawn. 

even though it's ohio and you'll never get a tan.

play intramurals.

even if the other team rips your sweatpants off in the middle of the game.

play hard.

go greek.

get involved.

it's only 4 years (or 7 for some)

love it all.

she can make anyone smile.

name- Dylan maranto

age-  Almost 1 1/2 years old! wow

eye color- brown eyed girl

hair- ha as if you could miss it

job- making the world a better place.

my brother in law's mom donna sent these, and they made my life. 

i didn't know you could love someone this much. 

funny thing is she makes so many peoples life that much brighter.

she has no idea that she is the smile of so many days.

First one, just chillin like a villian.

next.

lunch break. i mean what? 

everyone eats with their hands. 

and wears it.

even with food all over. no one can resist the smile.

hahaha please notice the hair.

hahahah and this one. 

first off.

i stand by the thought of a musical prodigy.

second.

the.hair.is.amazing.

i can't not laugh.

she rocks.

I wanted to share with everyone.

i hope she makes you smile too.

Lil' Frail in the houuuseee

So I love this show.

I've been laughing so hard.

me on a hip hop show. 

i'm learning a lot.

haha to say the least.

we all came up with our own hip hop names.

I'm lil' frail.

i've got another story.

of nyc vs. lindsay

so c pad and I were riding on the subway the other day.

and we weren't sure which stop was our venue stop.

so anyone that has ever rode the train, knows the doors don't stay open long.

so we stop, and she decides we should get off there.

she walks off.

the door starts shutting.

i was not about to stick my arm in it.

carrie looks back

i stare in confusion.

i try to open it with my finger (like that would work)

and out of instinct, yell "carrrriieeee" 

ahha and realize what i just yelled like a child, we start laughing.

she is standing on the dock as it pulls away.

im standing in the train.

laughing. uncontrollably. 

i turn around and EVERYONE on the train is laughing.

i couldn't believe i got stuck on the train.

and then yelled like a little girl.

haha laughed the whole ride.

when i got to the venue. 

we were crying laughing.

haha the little things. 

we're special sometimes.

here is the view from my hotel.

tribeca.

so cute.

miss my nashville. 

see you next friday.

trust yourself.

I'm in Harlem. 

I like saying that.

It makes me feel brave for some reason.

Like, this little small town girl, is staying in Harlem and is Still alive.

VICTORY!!!!

I must say I love it. 

I go running by the river.

there is a church next door.

You can hear the sermon and the singing.

It is a great city, truly.

sure makes me miss nashville though.

Last weekend we went to Raleigh. 

So fun.

We laughed and sang and danced at concerts. 

Visited old friends.

Made new friends.

And we also watched city of angels.

one part. 

hit hard. 

I loved it.

Seth: You're an excellent doctor. 
Maggie: How do you know? 
Seth: I have a feeling. 
Maggie: That's pretty flimsy evidence. 
Seth: Close your eyes. It's just for a moment. 
[touches her hand] 
Seth: What am I doing? 
Maggie: You're... touching me. 
Seth: Touch. How do you know? 
Maggie: Because, I feel it. 
Seth: You should trust that. You don't trust it enough. 

I loved it.

How often do we go against our feelings?

Just because something isn't PHYSICALLY there.

is it wrong?

feelings are never wrong, correct?

You feel what you feel? 

they may not be easy or fit into your life.

but they are real.

I think sometimes we search for approval.

we want to be "right"

not to be called foolish. 

wait for the right timing.

what if we didn't? 

what if we went with what we felt and just had faith the rest would fall into place?

Too many scared people. 

afraid to be what they feel.

terrified to love who they have feelings for.

It's almost like we're all OK with being the same.

In fact, we LONG to be the same.

Same size, same outfit, same home. 

B.O.R.I.N.G.

It's like we're afraid to be anything above average.

Why, because we might have to take a step alone?

Take a step in the dark.

Risk something on someone, with out knowing what will be?

Just go.

on feelings and not what "makes sense"

As kat would say "go team nike".

Just do it.

That's all on that. 

they are real. 

this is a picture of Lara and I bowling.

it makes me happy.

she makes me smile.