medium this.

i had coffee with my lovely friend kels this morning.

and i always order a medium coffee.

this reminded me of a conversation i had with a friend of mine.

he said, "you know, there are studies  about people who order mediums.

people who order 'mediums', fries, medium rare, drinks, they're said to be indecisive and a follower? They say people who like medium are people pleasers and don't want to take a stand."

haha i'll show you a medium.

i like medium.

i stand by my medium.

small doesn't make it.

i like the taste.

i want more than a sip.

large makes my tummy hurt.

and i end up wasting.

i'm going green when i order my medium.

i don't like to waste.

so really i'm saving the world.

i like to take the medium slice of cake. 

the reason is because if you take the large.

you're a selfish heffer.

ha heffer. i like that word. anyways.

if you take the little one.

you'll always wish you had a bit more.

haha be honest.

i wear a medium shirt.

i can't help this.

i guess if i would take that large piece of cake.

i could end up wearing a large shirt;) haha

anyways. here is to all people who like "medium"

large people are jealous because they have to have it all.

and smalls well they're just pretending that small is enough.

we're not followers. 

we're just the people who order exactly what they want.

hahah speaking of cake.

here is a fun photo.

my dad would kill me if he knew i put this up.

but i think they look beautiful.

one word.

blue.

sometimes you bring out my temper.

i'm mad.

i'm upset. 

mad.

at myself.

and others.

that i love.

that chose to quit.

if you quit.

if you decide you just want to go with the flow.

that hurts me.

it hurts others.

i know it's easy.

to just do what every other person is doing.

it's easy to do what feels good.

but life isn't meant to be easy.

and by you settling.

it's more than just you.

my heart.

breaks for you.

i know what you are.

and it seems you gave up on that.

you gave up on being the amazing person that i know you are.

we all want it to make sense.

we all want it to be black and white.

we want easy.

but guess what?

grow up.

it's not. 

try. 

try to be something someone can look up too.

and when you fall.

because we all are human.

you'll fall.

daily.

get up.

move on.

learn.

grow.

crap you make me mad.

i'm not perfect.

FAARRRR FROM IT.

you're not perfect.

but that doesn't mean you can just quit.

life is meant to be fun too.

and love.

LOVE.

it's meant to have love.

yourself.

others.

believe you deserve it.

believe that others feel it too.

no one can love you if you quit loving yourself.

im mad that you just let yourself off easy.

you're better than that.

ok enough venting. 

i'm going to go watch some cheers.

the theme song.

reminds me of my parents.

i just remember it on at my house when i was a kid.

makes me happy.

the. end.

and I think it's very dangerous if we do not take what's ours....

packing.

i'm very bad at packing.

4 years in one house.

i've collected a lot of junk. 

show binders.

credentials.

halloween costumes.

intramural jerseys. 

pictures.

lots of pictures.

mr. narwahl. 

haha so packing what needs to be packed.

trying not to cry at the stuff going to goodwill.

so i've got my ipod jamming.

mostly Christmas music.

but some songs slip in.

like this one. 

the lyrics rock my socks off. 

i love this version because she's wearing sunglasses.

inside.

everyone knows how i feel about this.

silly.

anywho. 

the song is "gray or blue" by jaymay.

"don't second guess your feelings, you were right from the start"

it's about following your gut.

believing you deserve what was made for you.

and going for it.

love it.

smart car=happy lindsay

So i was driving yesterday.

and kind of busy 

and thinking of a million things.

giving myself heartburn 

the usual

anyways

God must have known i needed to laugh.

because what drives by me

but a smart car.

hahaha 

seriously people

i love them.

love like i love my sister.

ok maybe not that much love.

i had tears in my eyes 

they just don't look like they belong on the road.

they look like they belong in the backyard

with my 18 month old niece driving it.

but they make me smile so much.

and of course it was the tallest man with his head touching the roof.

do people know that they look like they're driving a toy?

i don't care.

keep buying cars that are too small for you.

because it makes me laugh and smile.

and that's what's important.

laughing.

good day.