Thursday, August 5, 2010

i had a crush on you if...

ok so it's my summer of yes.
yes to taking back my life.
not letting a career decide who i am.
letting love and faith lead the way.

soo...
i'm 27 and have dated like an idiot for the past 5 years.
ok my friend steph would say all through college too.
but i'm over it.
i'm sick of being stupid.

so here is a huge flaw of mine.
i think i'm a great person
i'm probably one of the most charming people you'll meet ;)
so i'm not trying to beat myself up
ha but this is a flaw
I HAVE GOT TO GET RID OF.
what better way than a blog huh?

here are my huge dating flaws
they USED TO EXIST
lately i've been really good about getting rid of them
but i think guys should know they're out there
idiots like me

outgoing
and talking to everyone
except the one she likes

let's play this game....

lindsay liked you if....

1. i talked to your best friend instead of you.

yeah i do this.
i also ALMOST ALWAYS
get asked out by the best friend.
example:
you and your friend walk in.
i have nothing NOTHING to say to you
but instantly bond with your bff paul
sorry bff paul.
i just am too nervous to talk to your friend Bob that I like

sorry bob that i ignored you.
it's just that i was too nervous around you.

2. I've danced with your best friend.

ha and i love to dance
so chances are
i've danced with your best friend
in hopes that you would ask me to dance
ughhh just ask me to dance fellas.
it's easier than this game

unless i held your hand after you danced with me
then i liked you


3. i couldn't hold a conversation with you.

news flash.
i can have the best conversation with a bookshelf.
if i couldn't form a sentence around you
i liked you
if a conversation is really awkward, example:
you: how are you today?
me: i like pencils. sometimes i use pens. but mostly pencils, except when i use markers.

yep.
i'm baffled and have noooo idea what words are spitting out of my mouth.

i liked you.

4. if i pretended i didn't see you.

sorry guys.
this one is HUGE for me.
i suck when it comes to this

example:
i'm at sushi yobi with friends
you walk in.
this place is smallllll.
narrow.... the waiting area is seen by the whole restaurant.
everyone sees you.
but i'm still looking the other way.
then you walk up to the table and i drop my chop sticks and act surprise.

yes.
i saw you and am 5 years old.
then i go back to number 1 and immediately start talking to your bff
and asked him to hang out and play volleyball instead of you.
yep
i was just hoping you would say
"i want to hang out too"
see they all tie together.

5. I emailed you or facebooked you instead of talking to you

ughhh i hate that I can't say what I want to guys in person.
actually most guys are like this too
text.
facebook.
email.
lamesauce.

instead of talking in person.
it's weak really.
imagine if our grandparents had done this?
been this lame?
where would we be?

so guys that i have liked
i'm sorry
sorry that i really liked you
and you probably felt a connection too
and then i played ALL SORTS of games
truth is.
it was just to make you come after me.
which is stupid.
but the truth.

i smile all the time.
laugh all the time so you don't see
that i really miss or like you.
girls do that.
we want to smile in pictures so you don't get it.
but really we just want you to ask us to go get coffee.
no more games.

good thing out of all of this
this summer
i've grown soo much.
it's sad that i wish i could have grown in the past
that maybe one of you would still be in my life
but what's done is done
but i've grown
and two.
i've written some really great songs out of the heartache this has caused me.

haha no seriously
lots of songs.



3 comments:

  1. i love this. Number 5 is me. I really love your blog. lots.

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  2. i love you and your summer of yes.

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