i am the skinny mirror.

so one of my best friends

had this skinny mirror in her house

and everyone LOVEEEED IT

we would go over to her house

sometimes just to get a boost

in the old self esteem

it's true

haha whatever you all know it's true

anyways

when she moved to cali

I GOT THE MIRROR

woooo hooooo

haha seriously it's that great

and my roommate doesn't care

she comes into my room

just to get the boost

it's fun.

anywho

i was thinking the other day

why does that have to be the "skinny mirror"?

why can't that be how we look

and the "normal mirror" that makes us all look bigger

why can't that be called the "fat mirror"

ok hear me out.

think about it

they're both pieces of glass.

in frames.

both probably poorly made

one makes us look 20lbs heavier than the other

one makes us feel "ehhh i look ok"

and the other makes us feel "i look gooooood"

so why do we NATURALLY think the "ehhh i look ok" mirror

is how we look?

it's sick really.

we all do it.

we think the worst is what is real

and the "i look goooood" is too good to be true.

i think that we're sooo used to beating ourselves up

we let all the magazines

the tv shows

(i know i know the irony of my job)

but we let them all tell us we're not good enough.

the other day i was wearing a dress

and i kept going back and forth

between my mirror in my bathroom

which is the "ehh i look ok" mirror

and my bedroom mirror which is the "i look goooood" mirror

yes i have A LOT of mirrors

my dad says it's a "bodell thing"

ha my mom decorated with a lot of mirrors

so i do too.

i like looking at myself? i don't know

anywho.

i decided

i have to wear this dress

im a confident woman

and one of these mirrors makes me feel ok

and one makes me feel GOOODDD

soooo i picked

right there.

i decided

i was going to determine that the skinny mirror

was how i looked

that the other mirror just was broken

and the skinny mirror

with my slender self

was how i looked. :)

so this is what im saying.

you choose.

you pick how you feel.

which you is really you.

and whether the world is telling you the "ehh i feel ok" mirror

is you or not.

you get the final say in who you are

because at the end of the day

they are both mirrors

and i get to decide how i see myself.