Let's Dance God

So I just had my first guitar lesson. Yeah...so I’ve played for years now, but never took the time to learn from someone better than me. What a gift these lessons already are, the world of music is so large and beautiful, I can’t wait to soak it all up.

We talked for about 10 min and then he said “you have to sing the song you’ve been given. There is no one out there that has listened to all the exact music you’ve listened to, the exact mixture of influences. Only you have the exact song in you, it needs to be sung. You can’t sing or play like me, you can only do what you were made to do.”

WOW.

Ok.

His one statement summed up my summer in Texas. With out giving you the 12 hr version of the summer (call if you want to hear it, it's awesome), God just really showed me how much he loves the authentic and real Lindsay. He made me exactly how I am, dancing, singing, laughing, He made me. He didn’t make me you and He showed me this summer He is waiting on me and excited for me to be uniquely me. He was jealous for me this summer in making sure I knew it, he was waiting and what was on the other side was amazing. He took fear off of me and showed me so much joy in going where he’s made for me, there is joy waiting there for me.

He also showed me so much freedom there is in just being me, exactly where I am today, and letting people see me and love me just as I am.

I can’t sing your song, you can’t sing mine, someone needs to hear about Jesus through my song. All the turns, the twist, the melodies that are unique to me, that song needs to be sung.

Thanks God for making us so unique, God please help us continue to want to sing our song. It’s freedom to be who He’s called us to be in Him, and it frees others to be themselves in Him as well. We have to go where He's leading, even if it's weird and totally out of the box. It actually is going to be out of the box, He doesn't fit in the world, not even close. So his plan won't either, but we can trust Him because He's the one waiting to take our hand, spin us around and dance with us. 

I'm so excited for this new season with God, I don’t know what or who it holds in it, but I'm coming home new. I hope there are a lot of songs, videos, random adventures, destinations unknowns. I hope there is dancing in parking lots, dancing in the kitchen, dancing with cute guys ;). I hope it is filled with gut laughter and some tears too. I don’t know what or who is ahead of me, but I know God has already done it and it’s going to be amazing.

Here's a pic from Texas because I love pictures. The place where He sparked my heart yet again.

Thanks God

Let's Have An Adventure

Let's go on an adventure together.
A Video Blog Adventure.
To see life and see God.
Here is the start.

I am Creative.

It challenges me to think freely, to be creative. It sounds so backwards but it's true, it's easy for me to do normal, it takes a lot of work for me to be creative. I have to be really disciplined with my time and mind to think "outside of the box".  The world tries to offers me everything I'll ever need, why would I need to create anything new? There are pinterest boards on how to dress or eat or who to be. Instagram tells me what to think and feel, TV tells me what is cool and trendy. Why would I ever need to create anything for myself, be outside of the box?

If I don't take the time to be creative, use what God gave me, I start following the world and to be honest that bores me. I'm not made of this world so following it won't be enough, it's not creative enough, or good enough for my mind, a mind like Christ. I need to dig in deep and create something, anything that God says is good and go with it. I need to let my mind run wild until I stumble upon something that makes my heart beat faster and I can put out into the world.

God is the God that created the sound of thunder and the beauty of rainbows, he made every edge of the mountain tops and he even made yummy pumpkin spice lattes! (ha well He gave someone the creative idea to make them ha) Point is that He is super creative, think about it, how fun and creative He must be to make a narwhal, the cutest- weirdest animal I know of?

So I don't ever want to stop being creative, seeking more adventure in life and searching for outrageous new ideas. God is infinite so I can't ever learn it all or see it all or think it all, so why stop looking for new adventure and creativity? Why should we ever stop growing or learning or looking for something amazing, there is always going to be more of God so why not ask to see more of His creative mind?

So I'm doing this 100 day challenge with my home dog Carrie V:

http://hillsong.com/collected/blog/2015/11/the-100-day-creative-challenge/#.VkNhQa6rTq0

We're going to spend the next 100 days, writing, drawing singing whatever it takes to dig in and pull out something new and creative back into the world! 

About 5 years ago my friend and I did this project, where we decided to push ourselves past fear. We decided to let our creative side fly, let our passion take over and tell fear to go bye bye. We ended up creating this film, "31 Days" (you should watch if you have 45 min to spare), that just was raw and real and sparked us to push ourselves to be creative. There is a higher quality on DVD but the vimeo version will do. This video still sparks my heart.

https://vimeo.com/19056037

I'm not the same person I was back then, my voice doesn't sound the same, my life doesn't look the same, fear doesn't control my life anymore. Even though I'm not the same I can still grow. There is always something new to find, something fresh and creative to come out and make the world more beautiful. I don't know what will happen at the end of this 100 days, but I'm EXCITED!!

Thanks for being along for the ride!

If you knew God was coming back in a year, who would you be?

So a lot has happened since I wrote my last blog,  LIKE A LOT:

I colored my hair neon purple.

I'm moving to Australia next week.
I bought a pony.

And Adele has asked to mentor me and sing on her next album.

haha ok ok None of those things are true, but if I told you what was going on in my life, those things above would sound more real than my real life :)

My friend told me I need to come up with a 2 min version of everything that is going on. hahaha and for the life of me I can't get it all in 2 minutes.

Everything God is doing is soooo outrageous I just get so excited and want to tell everyone about all of it. I have gotten pretty good about just telling "parts" of what is going on, but oh my it's really hard for me to put what God is doing in a 2 min version. I guess I can try to sum it up in six sentences:

Sold my house.

I'm going into full time ministry with YoungLife.

Raising A large amount of support VERY quickly.

God is building up a community VERY quickly.

Seeds being planted in good ground.

Generations beyond generations will know the love of Christ. Hallelujah!

haha it's almost laughable how generic those 6 sentences are so you should ask me, we can get coffee. ha I've been getting a lot of coffee lately!!

Anyways, this time of my life reminds me of the below questions that EVERYONE has either asked or been asked: 

"If you knew you only had a month to live, what would you do?"

or

"If you knew God was coming back in a year, who would you be?"

Everyone has thought about their answers for these questions. What would we do if we knew God was coming next week? What is that one thing that we would only do if we knew heaven was tomorrow and we had nothing to lose? 

Jump out of an airplane?

Ask that beautiful woman named Lindsay out on a date ;)

Sell everything, buy an RV and travel the country?

We all wish we had the faith or courage to live out our answers, but something is holding us back? Usually fear, comfort level or society hold us back (usually a combination of them all) . Well anyways, I have my answer to that question too and I have to be really honest:

I am living part of my answer out right now. Honestly.

It's been years of talking about it and years of hearing his whisper (and sometimes not such a quiet whisper). It's been years of reading the scripture and saying "Yes yes yes that's right, have no fear, I'm bold, love does, live on the edge for God."

But I feel I'm here, God brought me right here. 

Now God is God, so I do believe every part of my life I've been learning and walking. I do believe I've been walking in faith and following him but now, now I'm in a whole new place. I'm not the same person I was 8 months ago, I might as well have that purple hair and change my instagram to @theNextAdele because that much has drastically changed. However, I do know I've been following him and he's been teaching and loving on me, but this time on my life is calling on faith and trust I've never known.

I keep saying "I'm out on the water, out on the water just trusting Jesus when he says I won't sink." I can't make myself stay afloat at this point, I can't make what He is saying be true, my strength and knowledge and what I see, it's not enough. I desperately need Him, desperately need to trust when He says He has plans to prosper, plans not to harm, when He is saying He's gone before me and it's done and trust Him. He is  literally all I can lean on. When I look at my own strength or try and figure it out, even for a moment, I almost sink, I will get so nervous I can barely move, literally. So he reminds me to look right at him and only him and shows me how to step. Ohhhhh and the walking parts these past months, even if they were baby steps up the stairs, the moving parts have been so Gods beauty. The trusting and peace, oh how amazing. I can't even pretend it's of my own strength, I can't even fake the peace He is covering me in.

Let's just say God is really showing me His glory and that I have no idea how to predict His moves but I really can trust Him, especially in the impossible situations.

I just listened to a Creflo Dollar sermon and he said "When Jesus does something in your life and you're surprised, it probably means your heart was hardened."

wow. just yeah.

He's showing me that His miracles surprised me, I don't know if I really trusted him with huge things. I read the Bible, believed in healing then, but Did I believe in it now? Did I really believe when he said "nothing is impossible" that it was true or was my heart hardened? Did I have unelief that God was ALL God said he was?

Everything that is going on has knocked me off my feet, at first anyways and now, even in this past month his "miracles" have become my normal. Praise you God for changing my heart.

I forever want to be doing things that make me need him so much that miracles are just the everyday and no fear has a hold on me. Because the honest truth is, Jesus is coming back, and we don't know when but let's not assume it's far away. God wants everyone and our call is to take the love we know and share it, plant those seeds right now. His call is not for us to build up our comfort level or make our plans, it's to go and share the word and do it with the urgency that He is coming back.

So I'm excited to be living out part of my answer to that "What would you do if you knew Jesus was coming back next month?" To let go of everything and run and share the good news with lots of joy and holding onto nothing as I meet with parents and high school students.

The other parts of my answer to that question? Well of course part would be to write and share music and I already see God stirring that one back up.

And the other part of "what would you do if you were going to die tomorrow" question would be marriage ;) Let's just say I'm in a place of trusting him to take care of every area of my life now so excited to see Him in it all, but this is for another blog ;)

" I'm telling you the very truth now: When you were young you dressed yourself and went wherever you wished, but when you get old you'll have to stretch out your hands while someone else dresses you and takes you where you don't want to go. He said this to hint at the kind of death by which Peter would glorify God. And then he commanded, "Follow me."  John 21:18-19

Eyes on Him

sitting in a hotel room in Chicago.
just listening to music.
thinking about God.
and Jonah came to mind.
we're studying the book of Jonah at church
and the past few weeks we've been studying Jonah's prayer to God
and how it's a prayer yes
but how his prayer is focusing on Jonah's strength and pain
and not on the Characteristics of the father

Jonah 2

The Message (MSG)

At the Bottom of the Sea

2 ^1-9 Then Jonah prayed to his God from the belly of the fish.

He prayed:

“In trouble, deep trouble, I prayed to God.
    He answered me.
From the belly of the grave I cried, ‘Help!’
    You heard my cry.
You threw me into ocean’s depths,
    into a watery grave,
With ocean waves, ocean breakers
    crashing over me.
I said, ‘I’ve been thrown away,
    thrown out, out of your sight.
I’ll never again lay eyes
    on your Holy Temple.’
Ocean gripped me by the throat.
    The ancient Abyss grabbed me and held tight.
My head was all tangled in seaweed
    at the bottom of the sea where the mountains take root.
I was as far down as a body can go,
    and the gates were slamming shut behind me forever—
Yet you pulled me up from that grave alive,
    O God, my God!
When my life was slipping away,
    I remembered God,
And my prayer got through to you,
    made it all the way to your Holy Temple.
Those who worship hollow gods, god-frauds,
    walk away from their only true love.
But I’m worshiping you, God,
    calling out in thanksgiving!
And I’ll do what I promised I’d do!
    Salvation belongs to God!”

¹⁰ Then God spoke to the fish, and it vomited up Jonah on the seashore.

Sometimes...a lot of times 

my prayers are very similar

me talkng to God

about what I've done

my pain my thoughts the way I see it

and I know He's glad that I am talking to Hm

but how much more wise It would be to listen

and If I can't find space to be silent

than at least spend the time listing out 

Who HE is versus who I am 

He is srength

He is holy holy holy

He is all knowing

He is Sovereign

He is Omnipotent

He is Omniscient

He is Omnipresent

He is all loving

HE IS LOVE

whew..whew whew

I hear Him know He is guiding me

and sooo many times I tell him

"it's too much, don't you know who I am? i'm itty bitty and this task is giant"

and sad to say I say that all too often.

and for whatever reason

as I'm thinking about all of this

I remembered a story my mama told me 

and if you were at my bday this year i shared this story

but short version is 

the day of my birth was a miracle

long story short

i was born a month early

mama hemorrhaged 

she was rushed to the hospital

on the way to the hospital

my mom and dad decided that whatever happened to them and their child

they would trust God in it

whew

just the thought of that heavy heavy conversation

how hard that conversation must have been

whew

but I truly believed they meant it

that they would trust God in it.

and my mom said a great peace came over her after they said that

at that very moment, peace.

so they get to the hospital

she went into labor

and the little bundle of joy you know today

lindsay michelle was born

so my dad goes to get my mom some ice

and the doctor comes in and shuts the door

and tells her that he shouldnt be saying this to her or asking her this 

but he wanted to know what her and my dad believed in

and she goes "well God, we believe in God." 

and he goes "good. I'm catholic and a doctor and I shouldn't be saying this, but if you didn't believe in God before today you should."

and my mom just sits there in silence as he continues.

"if this baby would have been born on her due date, I honestly don't think we would have you and her both here.  I don't think you or her would have made it.

Today was a miracle, nothing short of a miracle that you both survived and you should have great faith. The hand of God was on that child and on you." 

whew

i don't know why i'm remembering that story now

tonight
but i'm glad i did.

but it's a great reminder

i absolutely had no control

if i died or lived 

or if my mom died or lived all those years ago

but God did
Nothing is too big for Him
nothing will thwart His plan
not then not now not ever

and even though i've grown up

i still have the same amount of control

haha none

But the good news is

God still has the same amount of control

He still has absolute power

and I am His daughter that can trust Him in His plan

The Hand of God is on me

and I can trust when He says go ...that He has control I just need to walk.

I can trust that the story is not about my strength or my pain

but about His power and about Him

so Jonah was brave and did pray

but the story wasn't really about Him at all

it's about God's pursuit and continual love and strength

i love this song:

how great is our God!

take my eyes off of me
and turn them to your strength
you are good.
thank you Yahweh.

Freedom.

THIS IS MY FIRST GUEST POST...AHHHH 

ha ok really it's an email from a friend, but whatever it's a guest post. I had coffee with a dear sweet friend and they asked if I would be their accountability partner. They asked if I would listen, to things they had never told anyone, if I would just hear their life so they could be set free.

I just sat there in silence. This friend I had hung out with 1000909420 times before,  sat there and read their story to me, with their hands shaking and tears in their eyes.  I set there in awe of God, I got to sit there in the front row as my friend let go of the lies, the 'secrets' they had never spoken. As they sat there and let go, let go of the fear, I got to see them become more and more free.

With in a few hours of our coffee, my sweet friend sent me this email. My hope for you and for me is that this freedom my friend has found from trusting God, from letting Go, that we all feel by resting in Him.  There is a beautiful freedom in finding Truth in Him, below is just a glimpse of that freedom.

Lindsay, 

   My mind is in overdrive! I have so much to process but I simply cannot let this morning go without a thank you. Yes, to Him be the glory...but to Him I give thanks for you and how He used you today!!! I feel so amazing, so full of love and peace and gratitude! Its so wonderful that I MUST say a little more!

Before I do, I have to tell you that it's completely TERRIFYING for me to think about sharing like that...especially with my close friends or family. I started in the past to think about it but then it seems so small and silly. I tell myself no one would understand, or its just something I need to work on, or no one will get it because no one else has the same struggles like I do. HELLLLLOOO....I know you understand that those are sinful feelings and they completely lack faith in who God is and what He can do! 

But the reason it has never been something I could share with anyone goes back to "if you really knew ___ about me you wouldn't like me". Which is crazy! I know it is! But look at the things I shared with you that I had so obviously feared across a lifetime and how they covered up the joy in living and learning. Fear has stolen away the possibility of contentment and happiness in all situations both good and bad!! I am asking myself over and over, how many things do ALL of us in this world keep hidden inside because admitting them makes us feel like someone won't like us??  We are all scared, mad, hurt, ashamed that we don't have it all together!! That shame takes over the broken heart that gives God a place to start. It separates us from the great healer. Even worse it tricks us into thinking in small ways that we aren't "good" enough to be used. As Mike Glenn has explained it, we think we are a "mostly clean glass". We see our lives this way and its as if God might decide to have a glass of milk and as He got to the bottom where our "dirt" was He would see it, be horrified, and would spit us out. Yet He is the only one that can wash us clean in the first place. I couldn't understand what it meant to have a "willingness" to change and be made clean. Made new and set free!

True. Renewal. 

It's real!! It's like I knew it existed and still feel like I just heard it for the first time.

Linds, guess what??! I DON'T have it all together!! It feels great!!!

This honesty has brought in its wake a powerful flood of self reflection has overwhelmed me with an unbelievable sense of compassion for myself in the last few weeks. I can feel it breaking down walls and I have actually been considering how many things I do well instead of continuing to beating myself up for "being a mess." I'm learning and growing and making mistakes but I can love myself more than I ever imagined by first forgiving ME for being ME:)

Then, I can rest in knowing God forgives me and loves me and He was after me all along. He can make the wrong things right again and better than I ever imagined. 

In the spirit of fellowship and in confession I must say this: It's not that I have been able to conceal any bad habits from you or anyone over the years. I spent years alone in this feeling by believing that I was or even that I should.  But you have known these things about me for years and years and never cared about me any less because of them! I know its true but I had to allow myself to "KNOW" that it was. For real Linds, its so scary to go day by day essentially "trying to hide" in plain sight. I'm laughing as i'm typing this because the ridiculousness of Adam and Eve gasping because they were naked and grabbing the first fig leaf they could find to cover up is coming to mind! I never appreciated the depth of that story before. Its like we suddenly see that we are doing wrong so we are ashamed and hide from God AND from each other. I'm know its why so many people become isolated in a place where addictions can start, or anger, or a million other things which only carry us further away from a closeness with Him. What a pity to have a good friend like you and not allow myself a genuine vulnerability for us through fellowship or by lovingly accepting each other no matter what. 

So. Here it is in black and white (AND in email no less where it could always be found and where someone could always read it and discover who I really am!!!) Ahhh!!!! I'm going for it. I'm typing it and making it real!!!

I am lost. I am incomplete. I am a sinner and cannot do anything on my own besides fall. I am mourning my own "best life" and I have been in bondage to my sins. I have been walking around heavy and in chains. I have hurt others in ways I cannot fix on my own. I have strayed from the Father who made me, the Master to whom I belong. I have remained hurt and not allowed the Healer to make me well. I have cried out to Him in the darkness, then hid from His light.

But I am loved. I am forgiven. I am seeking Him. I feel that He is calling my heart. He is whispering in my ear that He wants all of me. I want to accept the gift of Him and confess that I struggle daily to keep a fortress together that is built on a foundation of sand. I do not want to keep up this maddening effort! My soul is crying out. I need Him. I MUST confess to others in the faith AND to my Lord. I need strong brothers and sisters to watch after me and help carry me when I fall. In Him I have found more than I had believed was lost to begin with. I must never give up. I must run the race and be worthy of the reward. I desire the strength that comes from following Him and trusting. I must allow myself to feel and give a name to my heartache, pain, and fear in order that I may be free from the power of sin and shame. I no longer find it comfortable to remain burdened with denial. I am exhausted by a fools errand that I will one day "find" my way to Him and "see" my own gifts. I cannot spend my days looking all around!! Treating his promises for our purpose and for eternal life like something in a box under a tree left for me to find!! I cannot deny the meaning of this or I will never know Him. I believe that He has always been with me and he will go to the past and make it well, I must only surrender it to Him. 

Amazing grace how sweet the sound. This glimpse I have had today of my Lord, I don't even have the words! I am heavy and breathless with HOPE and I believe in the freedom of a life lived for Him. I believe in His promises for me AND YOU!!!
The essence of faith!! it happened just like that. If I was in conversation and not forced to slow down in order to type it out I might have missed its power. It feels so delicate, so small...like the mustard seed! (Oh WOW I get that story too!!!)  Praise God, oh my heart! To see a glimpse of His love and feel it like I have never felt it before. I envisioned this experience but pictured it happening high up on a mountain or in a beautiful state of meditation and instead it was over coffee and conversation with a friend. A coffee shop. He was there and He is here. Restoration has started in me today and I could not hold it in. AND YOU WERE WITH ME! 

"But now thus says the Lord, he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you. For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior. I give Egypt as your ransom, Cush and Seba in exchange for you. Because you are precious in my eyes, and honored, and I love you, I give men in return for you, peoples in exchange for your life. Fear not, for I am with you; I will bring your offspring from the east, and from the west I will gather you. ..." Isaiah 43:1-7

How do you know?

How do you know?

People use that question a lot.

in big life decisions 

and especially in love

"How did you know which college to go to?"

"Which Job is the right one for me?"

"How did you know they were the one?" 

"How do you know which way God is pointing you?"

sometimes we just want advice
sometimes we use it to weigh out the options

and sometimes we just use it out of worry
worry of making the wrong choice.

I was thinking about this question today
and my mind went to my brother
I know I know..I talk about him a lot

but guess what..
he's awesome and you should know him

anywho.

he was always good at sports

he was born good at baseball

he had a trainer in middle school that told him he could go far
college and maybe further
if he worked really hard he could do it

zach's response....

"ehhhh maybe."

and soon after that

he stopped playing
ohhh i could have hurt him

hurrrtt him

haha he was so good at it..
he liked it
but he didn't love it

just liked it

so he quit

my mind went to the obvious,

"you're excellent at baseball and you like it and could play in college...dude come on!!"
it was obvious to me..but to him it was

"ehh" 

he just liked it. didn't love it.

then came his senior year of high school

and he called me and asked me to support him

uhhhh ohhhh

what did he do now?
haha

and then he said 

"i'm going to join the marines. I don't need you worrying, I need you of all people to be the one to support me, the one to cheer me on!"

i immediately started tearing up
i couldn't help it,they just came out

i just sat there
then asked

"why?"

and he said "I've just always wanted to. it's right for me. I've always wanted to, it's in my heart"
and i just sat there
i wanted to smile..and say yes...i really did

but i just kind of sat there
then he said "plus i need your help..I need to learn how to run a mile and a half in 10 mins"

haha then I just laughed

at the thought of us both running that fast

and then said "OK I will help you"

and that was it.

from that day forward
i knew..i knew it was the right career for him
i didn't say "zach think this over...zach this is dangerous..."

i had chosen to support him

run with him
run next to him
put my feelings aside and encourage him

now don't get me wrong

plenty of times he's made dumb decisions
and i'm the first one there to tell him
i'm usually the first to give him my opinion
haha but this time

i knew to support him

because for the first time

i saw something in him
i saw zach experience passion

he was good at a lot of things
he liked a lot of things
but this was the first time i saw him pushing himself
running and working out and disciplining himself

every time I went home I saw a new Zach

he didn't pick the easy choice
he didn't go where his friends were going

he picked what his heart felt
and he was pushing himself towards it

and now he's that marine he pictured himself being

and it's not easy for him

and some days i know he thinks "oy vey i wish i would have picked something easier"

but his passion
his hard work

that makes me know he choose the right thing
he just knew

and i love that he followed the path less chosen and followed the path for him
he knew and followed that with out looking back.

when i was younger i thought "knowing" was black and white
open door vs. close door

OBVIOUS

and yes God is obvious

but the more I walk with Him
i'm realizing "what's right" usually isn't the one with the
"I'm the one sign"
it's usually the one that scares me
it's usually the one that looks absolutely the hardest
that's usually how I know it's where i'm supposed to go next
haha not because God is a mean God
not at all and I will admit that I used to think that
that it was all a punishment because I was a sinner

but no..not because of that

usually it's the path less traveled

not because He wants to show us we're strong
but i think He puts the things we're meant to do
or the ones we're meant to love
in the middle of really tough places
to show us it's Him and His plan only
nothing we planned
and that it's worth it

to show me

it was all Him
all from Him and to run towards it

I asked my dear friend Sadie recently to pray for clarity of a situation
and she said "nope,  I'm not praying for clarity for you..I'm praying for you to trust Him...where ever he takes you..no matter how hard it looks that you follow and trust."

haha talk about a friend.
she was exactly right
trust
hear His voice
Go where it almost seems impossible
trust He placed it on your heart
and trust He is already in the middle of it all...ready to guide you right in the middle of it

see the more I grow
the more I realize if it's right
He's not going to walk you around it

most likely it's not going to be this simple thing
most likely He'll use that passion

that glimpse of extraordinary
and walk you right through
what you think is too hard to do
and show you what you're meant to do

what is right is usually that thing you can't imagine ever having the courage to face
but you face it anyways
or that person that makes your heart beat a million miles a minute
and you don't know why
and the thought of facing the rest of life with out them 
is heart breaking
so no matter how hard it looks
that..that heart beat
that passion
that's how i've learned it's usually Him 

I used to want easy
but the more I grow the more I realize

the things or people God is really calling us to
sometimes
most of the time
look impossible
look impractical

look like a closed door

and yet our heart has passion

from Him

you'll be good at a lot of things
you'll like a lot of people

but run towards the thing that scares you
the person that seems too good to be true
follow that passion
His voice
trust that God has better than "like"

that God has better than "Good"

and trust you can't do it but that He already has

follow your heart beat when it's beating super fast
and Trust God placed that passion there on your heart
trust.

God give me strength to go where you call me to go

Lord give me strength to stand still when you have called me to stay

Please don't let me settle for anything less than your plan

Ephesians 3:20- God can do anything, you know - far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us. (The Message)